How big is He?

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

You know those silly jokes that always start with stuff like "your nose is so big. How big is it? It is so big that, blah blah blah." Well lately I have been asking myself, "my God is so big. How big is he?" I can't even begin to express what I think the answer is. OK, maybe I will try. We know he created the universe, and that he commands the movement of the air and sea. He is the Author and Finisher, Creator of all. So what are we to do as human beings? I will tell you what I think. We are to do everything, he commands and deserves essentially everything from us. That means every second of everyday we are to live for him. A lot of Christians would say "well ya, but we do have free will." Do we really? What does that mean exactly? I have been thinking a lot about the whole 'free will' thing. I know that the Lord says that in the scripture, but are we really being taught the truth as to what that means? I don't think the modern church has a clue! God is the biggest thing there is, and anything less, is not of him. I think I might step on some toes here, but I have to say it. Everything that happens is in God's control. Do you 'read me' everything! My whole life I have heard Christians say things like "I am under attack by Satan because I have cancer" or "our lack of faith caused someone not to be healed and die". I do know that Satan is out to steal, kill, and destroy. But, he is not bigger than God. Everything that happens is because God allows it to happen or he made it to happen. It is how we handle it that we see how "big" God really is. That is where our "free will" comes in to play. I just recently read Job, I could not believe it when I read it. But I had so much peace by the time I was done. God allowed Satan to attack Job. Really, I mean that goes against everything the modern church says. It isn't like Satan just went and took everything the man had, God allowed it. And Job still gave glory to God. I have personally been going through a rough time. I have had two miscarriages since January. The whole thought of God allowing my miscarriage's to happen was really hard. But the more I begin to understand it, it is amazing. I know you might be thinking that I am a freak, and that's OK. I am only expressing the biggest revelation that I have had in a long time. God is the one in control, what ever happens to me, as hard and as painful as it may be. I am to still give Him all the glory because I love Him. I have had major fear issues my whole life. And after this revelation, not much any more. Free will is not as free as we think it is. Once we understand what it really means, it is more Him giving us light to understand. "My God is so big. How big is he? He is so big that he has EVERYTHING under his control."

Emerging???

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Well, I have just recently heard of the "movement" of the Emerging Church. If you have not heard of it you soon will. It is a "movement" among Evangelical churches, debating a Post-Modern doctrine. In my opinion it is very dangerous. You can read more about this on Sam Storms website http://www.enjoyinggodministries.com/article/d-a-carson-critiques-the-emerging-church-part-i/. Here are a few of my thoughts. Unfortunately some of my "non-believer" friends have heard of this before I did. This is why they think Christianity is a joke. The Church continually changes what they think of the Gospel, what it means, and how it applies to us. One significant thing about the Emerging, is that they want a kinder, gentler version of evangelicalism. This means that they do not want an absolutist mindset, that they are convinced is out of touch with so-called postmodern developments in our culture. I mean since when was the Culture supposed to influence the Church? It is to be the other way around. The CHURCH influences the culture!!! We are headed for disaster if Christianity begins to sway back and forth with the changes of our times. The WORD is ABSOLUTE truth!!! We can not just pick and choose what we need from it for this time, and disregard the rest. We have to start praying for the leaders of the Church to start realizing that if people get offended or convicted in your church. And they decide to leave, then you probably did the Gospel justice. It is the Holy spirits job to convect. But if the pastors do not teach the Whole truth then there is nothing to be convicted about. We are at a very serious crossroads. The Universalism that is creeping into the Church will cause eternal judgment. I only write this because I believe a lot of people I know are letting their faith be swayed. The more I study on the subject, and the more I read the scripture. The more LIGHT I see. This is a quote from D.A. Carson "Is there at least some danger that what is being advocated is not so much a new kind of Christian in a new emerging church, but a church that is so submerging itself in the culture that it risks hopeless compromise?”

Why did I watch the news???

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

I normally don't watch the news, because my mind goes crazy. But tonight I did. All of the stuff about bailouts is making me sick. Don't people understand that this is on purpose??? The Government wants to move us into a place where we are totally relying on them, not God. It is really time for us to put our selfish things aside. And get our house in order!!! I am not saying this as a Republican or Democrat. I say this as a Christan. We must start getting things in order, if we are to live a long life here on earth. It bothers me that my Husband's Grandfather said that he was happy that he was going to be OK. But sad that we were not. I want my family and the following generations to be OK. When will the people of God start to realize that our Liberties are being taken away??? It will not be long before we become martyrs, because Faith is not of value. We have to start now!!! No more playing house, no more being consumed with worldly things. It is time for us to rise up and stand for what is righteous. The time is now, if we are going to make it out on the other side. As I read what I have written, I feel like a loon. But I am passionate about it for the sake of my children. I know that this is not all Obama's fault. This is 50 years of bad policies. But man, when did bailing someone out of the debt they owed become OK. We are struggling to pay our debt back. That is what you are supposed to do. Besides not having debt in the first place. Every month is a challenge for us, but we make it. Sorry for the ranting, for anyone who reads this. But, God have mercy on this nation!!! Stir up our hearts to stand for righteousness. You are all that matters Lord and I will NOT live in fear. Fear is the place where the enemy paralyzes us. You are good and your mercy endures forever!!!

On my face before God

Monday, March 16, 2009

For me, it always seems, that a huge tragedy has to happen before I let God be in control. I don't know why or what happened to me, that I feel like I can handle every situation on my own. It isn't long before it blows up in my face, and I end up on my face before God almighty. But why are other "so-called" Christians, exempt from this? What makes some people more repentive than others? Is it because they are truly not Christians at all? I think yes!!! I believe that if you are called by God, and a Christian, then the holy spirit would convict your heart of anything. And if you do feel convicted, and you do not repent, then you are in a really bad place and do not Fear God at all. I will be the first to say that I have feared the Lord all my life. But not always in a healthy way. I understand now at my age and what I have gone through that He is all that matters!!! The way I react to his call on my life is absolutely vital. I have been hurt so many times in my life that I have wanted to run from God as fast as I could. But every time, he has convicted me in my heart that running is not an option. So again I ask, What makes some Christians more repentive than others? I would answer, that they do not know God at all.

To love your family!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

When it is all said and done. All you have is your family, and God of course. It amazes me how family can hurt one another so bad. Some people choose to forgive, and others hold on to it for ever. Only repeating behavior, passed on, from generation to generation. When does it ever end? Right now I don't see how!!! How do you deal with family members who don't have the Lord as their priority? How do you forgive, when the hurt is so bad that you don't want to have anything to do with them? Only then there is the situation of family gatherings, Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc... My head says "screw it", But my heart says something completely different. We are to love our family!!! No matter what they do to us, no matter how bad we hurt. We have to, they are all that we have while we are here on this earth. I am tyring to be gracious, and be full of God's love. But the difficulty of family is like nothing else. I pray that the Lord will give me strength until he heals the brokenness.

Glory Baby

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I have listened to this song, by Watermark, a hundred times before. But I just remembered about it tonight. When I played it, I felt so many emotions. But finally, some peace. So here are the lyrics, for you to read.

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby.. You were growing, what happened dear? You disappeared on us baby…baby.. Heaven will hold you before we do Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you… Until we’re home with you…
Miss you everyday Miss you in every way But we know there’s a day when we will hold you We will hold you You’ll kiss our tears away When we’re home to stay Can’t wait for the day when we will see you We will see you But baby let sweet Jesus hold you‘till mom and dad can hold you… You’ll just have heaven before we do You’ll just have heaven before we do
Sweet little babies, it’s hard to understand it ‘cause we’re hurting We are hurting But there is healing And we know we’re stronger people through the growing And in knowing- That all things work together for our good And God works His purposes just like He said He would… Just like He said He would…
BRIDGE: I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies and what they must sound like But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know...

I miss you!!

Monday, March 2, 2009

So, most of my day's are better since your loss. But, sometimes, they are really hard. In quiet moments, I think all about you baby. I picture who you would have looked like, me or your papa. I think about the nursery, and how I would be preparing it, because by now I would know if you were a boy or girl. I wonder how your brothers would be with you. Especially because Caleb still asks about the baby in my tummy. I didn't get enough time with you and I miss you terribly!!! I can't wait to go to heaven so I can hold you in my arms. But that seems like such a long time away. The Lord will have to comfort me until then. I know he will take wonderful care of you, until I am with you. I love you so much!!!